Praising God

     On the 28th of this month it will have been one month since our miscarriage. It hasn't been an easy month by any means, but it is getting a little easier though. I guess eventually you have to move on somewhat, that's not to say that we are going to forget that we had been pregnant, but we can't live in the past. We have to praise God and live in the present. But honestly there are days when I don't want to praise God, I'll ask over and over, why did he have to take our baby? But who am I to ask God why?

     Some people may not know it, but my wife has Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, long name that basically means that it's hard for us to get pregnant. But we prayed and prayed that we get pregnant. After a few months of continuous prayer God answered our prayers. Of course we had the miscarriage, but God answered our prayers. We were so afraid that we would never get pregnant, but we did, thanks be to God. Doctors had told Paula that more than likely she would never get pregnant, but apparently God had other plans. When we were in the ER we both realized that God had answered our prayers, but also that He had different plans than we did. Perhaps this was his way of saying that it's not our time to have a baby, I don't know. But I'm thankful that He knows.

     There are many nights at home that are spent with tears in our eyes. Some nights are better than others. But it still hurts. We still try our best to praise God, but its really hard sometimes when you think about what was taken away. But I thank God for my wife, she is the greatest gift from Him other than Jesus. I also thank Him for all our family, related and not, they are all our family.

Just Beginning

     So I really don't know why I started a blog. My wife, Paula, had brought it up a few times that I should start a blog, but I just always blew it off. My excuse was always that I'm not a writer. Well the other day she mentioned it to me again, so I finally said that I would. It has taken me a few days however, to write a blog, if that is what this is. I don't know what I'm gonna write about on here. So I think I'm just going to write briefly about what's been going on recently. So here goes....

     Well in two days my dad is leaving to go to Romania for three weeks. He is going to visit an orphanage that some very dear friends of ours started. While he's there he is going to build some cabinets in the kitchen there at the orphanage and whatever other work needs to be done while he's there. We can't wait to hear the stories when he gets back. We are really excited for him.

     So we spent all day yesterday with the family. Which was a lot of fun. They got one of the ponies out and hooked it up to the small cart. And I think most everyone got to ride on it. My nieces had some the biggest smiles on their faces. And it was my wife's first time to ride. She was a little scared. She didn't really trust the pony. We had a blast with the family. Sadly we don't get to see them as often as we would like.

     Well Paula has been making cookies for the past hour or so, and she's just about through, so since it's late and we both have to be at work early tomorrow, I'm going to wrap this up. There are many more things that I want to write about, but it will wait til another night at home. But I want to leave whoever reads this with one thing, which I had to tell my wife earlier, because she wasn't wanting to go to back to school tomorrow, I had to remind her that she needed to choose joy in this situation and to be like Christ at school. So choose joy and be like Christ. Til next time.